I am Adelle, not the singer.

I swear that I am up to no good.

  • 9th May
    2013
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Where ever I might be I could still trust that every day was an unexpected adventure, thrusting life force into me in form of places, people and events that made me close my eyes every night with the same thought: If I didn’t wake up in the morning I was sure I had truly lived as if it was my last day on Earth.I now knew that I had been slightly misinformed thinking that life is what happens between birth and death. It doesn’t. Life is a continuum, a cycle that constantly changes shape. Finally I understood the words of Eckhart Tolle: “The secret of life is to ‘die before you die’—and find that there is no death.
Tomi Astikainen, The Sunhitcher
  • 8th May
    2013
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Eight years? Eight fucking years. Eight years full of adventure. Eight years of ups and downs. 

Yes. You have eight years. And counting.

Eight years versus one month.

I can never top that. 

I will never top that.

  • 6th May
    2013
  • 06
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love. I hate love.
Neil Gaiman
  • 5th May
    2013
  • 05

I was so drunk last night I totally passed out right after I entered the house. Plans got cancelled. But as far my mind can remember, I shed a tear and I said to myself, “I am always the second best. Just the second best. Always.” Drama diba? And when I woke up today, I told myself, “Adelle, you’re too old for this shit, might as well move on and get a life.” No, I am not going to drink beer again. Yeah, but that’s just me. I know right.

  • 29th April
    2013
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  • 28th April
    2013
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Thank you, Camotes Island. I cannot say and promise that I will see you again, but I definitely had real fun. Thank you, thank you! I can now cross you out off my travel bucket list. :)

Thank you, Camotes Island. I cannot say and promise that I will see you again, but I definitely had real fun. Thank you, thank you! I can now cross you out off my travel bucket list. :)

  • 23rd April
    2013
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    2013
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    2013
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  • 21st April
    2013
  • 21

You: I like you.

Me: I like you, too, but…

That was our conversation last Friday night. It was very complicated The idea was very complicated. You were, and still are complicated. I asked you if what is the real situation between you and her, and you told me “let’s not talk about it”. Being the hopeless romantic that I am, I let it slip away. I enjoyed the time that we had. I even gave you an advice, remember? If you think there is still something to save in your relationship with her, then save it.

Today, I stalked your Facebook account. Then, BOOM! I saw a photo of you and her. Just last Friday. Wait, what?! Are you kidding me? God you’re such a liar! How could you do that? I know you’re saving the relationship, but don’t make it look like I am a fool. I am a sucker for love, but please, I am not a fool.

 I think I’m starting to believe what my office mate told me last week; that I am such a man-hater.

This is so nonsense even my English is so fucked-up!

  • 21st April
    2013
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  • 12th April
    2013
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