Two-week rest and I feel like quitting my job. I was hospitalized for 4 days and the doctor advised me to take some time off for 1 week. I went home to the province and there, I did lots of thinking, contemplating, and weighing things in; in between my nature-tripping, of course. Also, my parents kept on pestering me to quit my job and apply to the government. I just kept quiet, but deep inside, I was thinking…and considering it.
Two weeks ago, I was in Bohol, having the time of my life, went back to Cebu with mumps, tonsilitis and fever, hence the hospitalization - and just last week, a 7.2 magnitude earthquake hit the beautiful islands of Bohol and Cebu. I just thought to myself that being ill was a blessing in disguise and I fortunately I wasn’t able to experience the traumatic earthquake. I still thank God and the Universe for that.
Now I am back in Cebu and all I can think of is “I want to go home, for good.” I am back to my old self. I am not sure what the future has to offer me. For the first time in a very long time, I have to admit that I am scared. I am broke as fuck. My personal savings is almost running out; I don’t have anyone else to ask money from, not even my mother. I am crying as I type this because I really don’t know what to do with my life. I don’t even know how to end this post, nor I don’t know if I am even making any sense.
Universe, I trust my relationship with you, so come on and give me some love. Bring it on! Whatever my future holds, just let it be.